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Monday, February 28, 2005

todayy.... woke up with the super sian feeling... not a good start. was down the whole four periods b4 recess... but thank God for frens. they brighten up my day.
went to jeanne's house to make bday cards for jingyi... happy bday auntie... nyahahaha... ;)
walked as fast as i could from the busstop to home.. scared mom will scold.. it's lk i reach home at 7pm. nvm.. wadever time i reach home she oso give me the dark face..anyway i forgot she today got swordlight. -.-"
got cramp lorr... from walking so fast.
talking about tt... tmr sian la. full dress rehearsal... have to bring bag, art stuff and choir shoes. eeks.

fire burns best upon dry wood. revival will come upon those who are dry to the point of desperation. it is during this intense drought that the temptation to be lukewarm is the greatest.
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i remember...

we used to escape from MS... from her...
go to the church swing...
you would push me so high tt i scream..
and we would climb the railing or wadever you call tt...
our so called secret place...
try to hide from the adults coming down from the stairs...
and then we would jump down.. sit on the swing again..
talk about life...about school... about God...
i miss it..
our r/s has become so distant.
we're so arkward ard each other.
why has it become like tt...

i know you'll never read this.
but... as i recall.. it brings a smile...
brother i pray..
that somehow... as we look back...
we'll revive this r/s again.
what a mistake we made..
and it ended this way.

as we go on we remember all the times we have together..

Life is so RANDOM.
8:51 PM

Sunday, February 27, 2005

i know no one can see the title for this post. so i shall type it again.

destruction with words.

i think God is trying to tell me to be more careful with my words... so many times its like telling me tt.
like why does she need to say tt in front of *****.*.... after MONTHS and finally getting the rumors to a rest.. now it's starting again and worst, it's circulating among the leaders. why why why. ******.* was smart enough to guess what she's saying la. wL... i'm frustrated sia. stupid leh. after months of avoiding each other...after drifting apart... i lost this good r/s [lost as in we're not so close anymore] just to get rid of the rumors. is that going to happen again? and now.. the rumors are worse worse worse. it's completely ridiculous and not true. please la... dun hai4 me can. ='( i just hope this doesnt get out of hand... Lord please hear my cry... i get the message... please control... into your hands i commit.

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today woke up at 7.15am... met cindy at the bus stop and went for 9am service tog.. the sermon was good... about speaking in tongues. i think i'm gg to have the habit of going to 9am... =)
cellgroup.. talked about temptation... 1cor 10:13 i think.. it's a comforting verse... he will not test u to more than wad you can bear... and talked about the crucifixation of christ... why it was the worst form of punishment.. yeah... it's totally scary... my hair was like standing... and it's cruel.. but ultimately it's us who put him on the cross... also talked about the holy spirit... yup.
speedlight... took attendance with ale... hehe.. she's my attendance partner.. hahaa...
then... pract for pnw.
lunch.
laming ard in the office and in the end got like [look up]
wad a nice sunday. nvm. i still love sundays.

Life is so RANDOM.
9:06 PM

Saturday, February 26, 2005

argh. talk about studying. bleah!
i only finished like less than half of math and 0.00 of history.
cuz vivien came over; she needed to escape.
=x

and. i've come to realise tt we need to be VERY CAREFUL with our words. you'll never know when ur words hurt someone. shoot off some words and you can feel bad for a long time. dun have anything good to say, dun say. a word can chg someone's life.

Life is so RANDOM.
7:14 PM

wondering why.

people come to me for help when i sometimes can be so insensitive. yet i'll try to help them...
it seems tt i'm so fearful of stepping on some1's toes.. it leaves that...'guilty mood' and presses on my heart. help can sometimes be hurtful. in my case it's like 1/4 came out to be hurting.

maybe it's not my fault. nvm. i'll just try my best.

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haha...yesterday night was so fun. exchanged songs with allllly. found his strength is perfect. YAY!
anyway, i reached home at 3.30pm. which is considered so early. hahahas..

going to LEW on 20th march. just to visit... see the ppl i miss. ushers, manasseh 2004 and all the ppl. yays.

nice layout eh? hehe.. i spent the whole night fixing it. hehe.. cept i altered the pic...=p

yeaps. off to study in half and hour. need to catch up on my history. and math.

Life is so RANDOM.
1:24 PM

Thursday, February 24, 2005

well.
today's pnw for CF was kinda horrible.
i decided the songs on the spot. pract on the spot. evt on the spot.

hand signals got mixed up.
songs got mixed up.

BUT

nvm! cuz there's always next time... can improve.=D

Life is so RANDOM.
10:32 PM

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

lalala. today is wednesday. and guess what.. i think i'm learning alot from chapel service. and guess what again. i was supposed to sing for chapel today but when the person looked for me yest my class said tt i'm not in. -_-!! hecccckk... MUST BE THE GUYS! so i didnt sing. bleah. leading worship for CF tmr... i think it's kinda rushed. after pnw have to fly to the hall for choir. chapel msg was very nice today. what else. tmr got two tests. chi and dnt. >.<

i'm hungry. i'm tired.

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength
But sometimes I wonder what he can do for me
No great success to show
No glory of my own
yet in my weakness he is there to let me know

(chorus)
His strength is perfect when our strength is gone
He'll carry us when we can't carry on
Raised in his power the weak becomes strong
His strength is perfect
His strenght is perfect

We can only know that power that he holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His strength will begin
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again

Life is so RANDOM.
7:23 PM

Monday, February 21, 2005

my life seems to be like a deadly cycle.
my faith seems to be distant.

everyday::

sleep at 11+, wake up at 6.30am, not enough sleep, cant concentrate in class, not in the mood for studying, dun study for tests, pass borderlinely, CCA, go home, get scolded/ sarcastic remarks and blah, use comp, do hmwk, never do qt, never do 8to820 (sorrry lq --and sorry God) cuz not in the mood, feel not good, go sleep.

and it repeats.

why am i not in the mood for everything?!!!!?!?!?!!? not even in the mood to talk to Him.
feel like crap manx. arghhhh. ='((

everyone seems to be going through sth bad now... wad the heck. whyyyyyyyy....

and Mrs Uan talked to us about something today. 11 years ago there was a massive killing of a clan in africa, and the clan being killed ran to a city called Cogo (i think) 1 million ppl died.. and those who ran... the women ARE (notice the tense?) gang raped everyday. no one helps them.the husbands abandon them... no support, have to tc children... and it's not widely known.
it's still happening NOW. it's so sad isnt it. the millitants do not have a heart at all. perhaps it's better if they end their life, but they have children. they may have the enemy's children too. they never aborted them... cuz the children are innocent.

oh... how i pray that they'll see God's light of hope.. they dun even know God i think.... my heart really go out to them.
how blessed are we... in singapore we seem to take things for granted. including me. many a times we forget there are many people out there going through worse things.

Life is so RANDOM.
5:32 PM