argh. why is this happening. why why why. i dun want it to end like the last time. no.. this is better.
oh well. pathways cross, lives change. we have to accept tt and i have two weeks to do so.
;i've let go of the need to know why...
may, please distance yourself. thank you.
Life is so RANDOM.
10:06 PM
10:06 PM
sigh.. now my head is kinda screwy... it seems tt some1 is screwing the side of my head.. and it's painful... argh... jingyi auntie say it's due to the lack of sleep. maybe.
anyway, had three periods of dnt practical... haha so tiring.. saw saw saw..
and my english project... got grouped with some1 i DUN LIKE. rawwwrrr...
after school, had CF... mwahahaha.. got icecream in bread! so LONG never eat alr sia.. and it's vv nice.. wheees...
friday; the last day of the schooool weeeek...
saturday; cindy coming i think.. to watch moviee...
sunday; speeeedlight!
and oh.. i think... most prolly i dun want to go jc.. haha it's too early to decide lah.. but just thinking about it.. rather go poly.. cuz jc v stress.... .... ... blah..
Life is so RANDOM.
6:13 PM
6:13 PM
okok i know i shouldnt be here but ahhh well.
apprarently, my internet has gone crazy... sigh.. yes, AGAIN.
what else? oh, i got caught in the rain today.. and i slept quite early yesterday. so, today i concentrated abit better.
yesterday met up with tiffy in tamp.. haha.. wanted to shop for smth.. but wasnt v fruitful..so we went to Times.. saw some nice nice books.. then went to the library to borrow them. lol... tiffy was so indecisive.. haha.. and you can hear her spastic laughing all over the library.. =p oops.. haha..
stressed up... testtts... dumb tests. so many chaps at one go.. ><
resolution to do qt has gone haywire.. blah.
and... the wake up call... the earthquake! 8.7 on the ritcher scale.. sigh. oh well rmb? nations will rise against nations... kingdoms against kingsdoms.. there will be earthquakes.. famines.. all over the world.
the Lord is coming.. soon.. soon.
MYEs; 4++ weeks.
sunday; 4 days.
Life is so RANDOM.
5:30 PM
5:30 PM
His ways are higher than our ways..
thoughts higher than our thoughts..
timing always perfect.
i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.. =)
man can plan but when God moves something else happens.. Lord i'm trusting You..
the thought of it all brings tears to my eyes.. tears of joy cuz i know God will see me through.. yayness.. smilez..
` 5 weeks to MYEs... mug mug mug!
Life is so RANDOM.
10:59 PM
10:59 PM
Consuming Fire - Hillsongs United
There must be more than this,
O breath of God come breathe within,
There must be more than this,
Spirit of God we wait for You.
Fill us anew we pray,
Fill us anew we pray.
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us
Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.
Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall.
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
A passion for Your Name.
[But He said to me: "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness."...... i delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. for when i am weak, then i am strong.] -2 corinthians 12:9-10-
dwelling in His's strength.. for in Him i am strong. =)
feeling terribly tired but.. nehmind about it. haha..
Life is so RANDOM.
4:33 PM
4:33 PM
haha.... finally internet's working..
anyway... saturday.was.boring. i was reading... lazing ard and blah.. boring boring.
SUNDAY... which is TODAYY... was soo cool!!
in the morning.. as usual, met cindy to go 9am service.. but we had to meet earlier.. cuz cindy had to pract with lq...
but lol i woke up late... cuz yesterday night i watched the late night movie [hai zi shu] then overslept.. hahaha... sorrrrryy..
then, when we were practicing, nicholas' mom came to us, and asked us wether he was supposed to meet us.. and we said yah.. then
he's mom say tt he's still sleeping.. hahahaha...
so, i went to the service with lq, cindy, denise, alvin, cheney, grace, gloria and kenny.. sat at blk D.. sermon was good.. kinda
"bible study" like... prayer booster part 4.. after the closing prayer, lq started talking [or singing] alot of rubbish.. hahaha... he irritating alvin lahh... we kept asking
him to shutup.. haha... walked to golden pines, almost to cg alr.. then leon came, booed lq, and then asked this qn "hey lingquan, where's your guitar?" LOL... the reaction was SO funny... "oh SHUCKS... i forgot my guitar!" hahhaa... then cindy and alvin were like
"seelah! sing somemore lah!" hahahaha...
rightos.. cg was about way of escape chap 1 qn 5and6... broke into prayer grps and blah.. ushering, i was so blur.. same problem
appeared, seem tt we cant pack blk B properly. sigh.. think cgs are getting bigger haha... but tt is good..
celebrated kim eng's bday.. we taking ministry picture right.. suddenly alvin just dashed in.. haha...
ate lunch with cg.was a lame lunch as usual.. then went to office.. wahh... 1h [i think] of guitar...now fingers hurt alot..
but nvm.. cuz it's all for God.. =)
learned a new chord.. Bminor.. yay.. and a few songs.. strumming is somewhat better.. bla..
went to the sanctuary after tt, cuz everyone leave liao.. ahhh... i looked down the alsie.. saw JOYCELYN!! she oso saw me.. then we just
ran to each other and hugged.. miss her so muchh!!
[[consuming fire.. fan to the flame... a passion for Your name...]]
Life is so RANDOM.
9:33 PM
9:33 PM
okay. dunnit i think.
and this is getting worse !
i've to pray vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv hard even to go to the speedlight camp. starting from NOW. sigh.
and, here comes sheryl the guai kia.. going to try reverse physcology and stick to it. haa... oh well.
;Lord please please please make the path clear.. the door open. thank You in Jesus name..
Life is so RANDOM.
8:54 PM
8:54 PM
argh. everyone's at nicholas' house having a big good time i bet. and i'm here rotting away. =(
it's damn irritating. my parents [yes it's them again] dun let me go. and dun even let me eat with my cg. i've this bad bad feeling tt they wont let me go for the next i duno how many gatherings. somemore, they never even plan smth constructive today. [oh, you mean rotting at home is constructive]
okay sheryl. quit complaining.
anyway, just to describe yesterday. and this morning.
[[yesterday]]
grandma woke me up at 1am, saying, "sheryl ahh.. hai mei you qi chuang ah??!!" then i reached for my phone... see the time... and scolded her lo... haha "ahhh maaa!!! xian zai zhi you yi dian laa!!" and slept back. lol
gd friday service in school.. guest speaker. the speaker was vvvv funnnnnyyy!! hahaha... then, did community service..... ....
they sent us to novena square. selling pens. haaa..... it was bad... pls lor... at tt time, ppl working...how to buy pens. craziee la. so anyway, we wnet from novena square to novena church, then to novena square and then to opp novena sqaure, back to novena square and okay i know you're confused. =p
was vvv tiring. hahah..
at night, went to meet tiffy, ale and vin for dinner [edmund father's wake]... at white sands. then vin was late, so we went to foodcourt first to meet cheney and alvin. haha... we saw them from the escalater lor...cuz they sitting next to the window. the table v small, so we chged table... suddenly alvin say "ehz tiffany! cannot wear blue!" then tiffy was like going to cry like tt... in the end is alvin bluff one laa... -.-"
haha... so funny lor the dinner... alot of it was teasing someone. haha...then alvin told me tt he heard today my cg got organise smth right.. then ask me if got go... then i said no, he ask why.. then i say tt i got family gathering. but added under my breath, "tt's just a nicer way of putting it" tiffy heard it la. haha..
vinvin finally came at 7.20pm... then we went to this shop to look for inspiration... to write the card... decided on romans 8:28. took bus to the block... haha yes as usual the bus trip was equally lame...
rightos. the wake. the service was okayy... then jacq came. haha... ate the food... tho abit paiseh... somemore laming ard... more teasing... [=p] then we gave the card to edmund.. talked abit... to his sister oso... [hahaaa this is the funniest part of it... but i wont say why] saw sarah...blah... then about 10 like tt we went to take bus to tampines at the west mall there... alvin needed to go to the washroom...[jacq went off alr] then we decided to hide... bluff alvin we go off liao... hahaha so funny.. me ale and tiffy hid... [but we were still quite prominent] vin and cheney hid behind the big advertisment thingo. [they were v well hidden]..laughed like siao... then alvin haha saw us... [but didnt see vin and cheney] so we came out la... budden right... suddenly cheney ran out from behind the ad board... jumped on alvin. lol... alvin was so shocked lo! hahaha... then we said to him.. "see la.. always bluff ppl.." hahaha... yeah... bus came... the bus trip was soo lame... [haiis, with alvin ard... wad u think?] reached home at 11pm.
wanted to tell my parents abt the cg gathering... but they cut me off even b4 i opened my mouth to talk. hopeless.
[[today]]
-.-"" why all gd fridays are like tt?! anyyywayy
supposed to meet cg at 9.30am. only shaun and melissa were there.. the rest duno go where. cindy sms, say she late. lq never sms. oso duno he go where. shaun booked the whole row. haha.. in the end.. our dear leaders were v late... had to give up the seats. they ended up in the manger la. haha..
the choir was vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv nice sia! =) i like the entrance... heex...
then right.. aft service we met cindy and lq at the vending machine. tried to ask my dad again, but he refused, flatly. so cannot lor.. couldnt even take pic with them.. or eat lunch. was dragged off to central.. ah boring la... no appitite to eat... so din eat. was so moody... didnt talk much.
folks were talking abt me in dialect, i know. my dialect isnt tt bad lor.
ah. take a knife and kill me... this doesnt feel like family anymore... =(
now i'm just rotting at home. it's 3.49pm. and nth to do. no 'family gathering', no cg gathering. sigh.. i just want to throw pillows at someone. nah, i want to fly to tampines, to nicholas' house and watch movie with them. but.. haha.. talked to pris, and she said she understand wad i'm feeling now... so thank God for her.. she said tt "honor thy parents" and i did tt... and so God will honour it. i guess so.
finally, if i tend to send some moody sms to you... you can choose to ignore it. really. i just need to vent it somewhere... dun waste your sms.
[[to numb to feel. someone please explain wad's happening. my life is not mine anymore. it's theirs. no. it's God's.]
Life is so RANDOM.
3:52 PM
3:52 PM
wheeeees.... guess what what?! today is my second year with jesus!! ;D yay... hahaa... weird tt i still rmb... but it's v easy cuz it's one week after my mom... heex.
stuck with some delimma but i guess i have to choose one, by friday. nahs, i think i've alr made my choice..
lit today was quite fun... acting a play! haha... looked so funny in my dad's shirt...
and sian sia... today after swimming, the instructer was so lor sor... talk so much... then in the end we had to shower late, and the person using tt cubicle which i was queuing up for was an auntie... plus i bathe vvvv fast liao.. in the end we were late... so almost all the gurls in my class were marked as "absent" and we have to go for makeup lesson next week... crap... so unfair lor.
nvm... shall be forgiving! -.-"
this week have been so slack... no hmwk at all... so shiok... tmr doing community service.. quite looking forward to it.. selling some nkf stuff. heh..
had a vvv nice chat with jingyi and jeanne just now in the canteen, over lunch and after eating lunch... talked and talked and talked... told them my frustrations.. then we just talked abt our childhood la... heex... =)
chermaine sent me smth v nice... so encouraging... thanks gurl..
Jesus please be the Lord of my family....
[[crucify the "me" and let God take root of your life... more of Him, less of me.]]
Life is so RANDOM.
4:13 PM
4:13 PM
dear God.
as i was sitting on the floor in the classrm just now all the feelings of remorse just washed past me.
im really very very tired... want to bang the wall... tired physically.mentally.spiritually and the list goes on.. i know v well i shouldnt be complaining.. aft all, You were the one who suffered more than me... i know You understand me very well.. inside out, way more than myself.
feeling very jumbled. i dont even know what to feel. this family's falling apart and i'm helpless. yes, maybe she doesnt mean it.. it hurt my heart alot and You know... what can i do but pray? is it a very hard fact to accept, the fact that being bz is a part of life?
sometimes it's just so superficial. smiling when i dont feel like smiling...
really want to break down but something's holding me back.. i know it's You Lord... i know it's You... the one that sustians me and all..
and yet will i praise Thee... lift my hands and sing yet will i praise Thee... way high above my circumstances i will praise You Lord..
i belong to You... you have said "this one's mine"... and truely the devil cant snatch me away..
i love You Lord... i want to run back into Your open arms, knowing that You will welcome me.. thank You for Your grace which gives me strength everyday...
as good friday comes... i reflect and think upon Your sacrifice for us...
Life is so RANDOM.
5:27 PM
5:27 PM
sigh i'm becoming more and more and more and more anti social..
even jeanne commented on it alr...
and guess what.... i kinda lost my patience alot today ahhh i cant help it.... sorrrys ppl...
seem tt it's so difficult to get their attn... and some ppl in my class just want to make life difficult for me. i TOLD them tt i'm collection one buck for the CLASS FUND... wrote it BIG on the whiteboard.. and they just dun care. gave them one day alr lor. i get comments like...
"loanshark coming!"
"why must pay? what is the class fund for?!"
"i dun want to pay leh!"
"i got no money!"
and more dum crap. sighs. okayy.... better ctrl myself.
and sometimes... my frens just laugh laugh and laugh... over some vvvvv not-funny-things. -.-"" feel v i duno... maybe i'm just sensitive..
and this topic of being a christian and God is vvvvvvvvv sensitive in my school... teachers... students and all...gahs.
Life is so RANDOM.
5:21 PM
5:21 PM
haha... today was a pretty boring day.
just read al-T's post and realised again why i tot the offering part of the planetshaker's concert was crappy...
"2 bucks cant do anything!" -.-"
havent he heard of the bible story... this woman who gave her all [which was v little] but God thought of it as alot? cuz it was everything she had...
so yah... 2 bucks can do alot of things.. bahaha... we were laming ard when he said tt... "2 dollars can buy eight ice creams! tempura chicken! blah blah!" anyway the point is if you give God like the max of what you can give.. it's enough...
today: jeanne burned like most of my photocopying card [left 4 pages i can copy]and we worked on our math worksheet... so fun lor... and were laming ard... with jeanne acting blur and me playing along with her... hahaha... she was like "how do u make the [comp] mouse move ah?" then i said "oh.. vv easy onex...just put it in front of the cat and it'll run after the cat.." hahaha...
and i juz realised i spent alot during the hols... ALOT... almost 30 bucks.. and tt is like one over week of my allowance......... bleah! gotta save save save sheryl.... SAVE!! means: eating lesser and not as and when you want to eat, stop buying pens, stop taking neos, stop buying anything on the spur for the time being....... sighs...
which means, actually... out of the 70 bucks i saved over.... .... ... [gasps!] 6+ years... i used up alot of it. =x ! sighhhhhs.... saveeee.... argh
somehow over the past few days i got this thought... how would i react if some1 close to me die? hmms..
and im not going to lead pnw for CF liao... i cant do it. really cant...and being a watchlighter...sighh... really gotta chg my mindset. must serve with a willing heart... but i dun want.... anyway it's only one more week [i think]
found this meaningful song yesterday... duno the tune or wad but i think the lyrics are vv nice.
Jesus Christ, i think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing, pour out to death
many times i wonder at Your gift of life
i'm in that place once again, i'm in that place once again
once again i look upon the cross that You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and broken inside
once again i thank You, once again i pour out my life...
God cant break His word. and because his word cannot be changed, the promise is likewise unchangeable.
We who have run for our very lives to God have every reason to grab the promised land with both hands and never let go.
[hebrews 6:18]
Life is so RANDOM.
7:19 PM
7:19 PM
i remember there was this night after MS... i was eating supper with my mom's cg...
and i was feeling v tired... so i like leaned on my dad la...
then,one of the guys said.. "why.. tired ah... your cross too heavy izzit?" [cuz i was wearing a cross necklace]
it was meant as a joke la... but now it has become a reflection point for me..
sometimes we're really tired of bearing the cross... maybe it's too heavy... isnt it?
but in the end, like when we're tired we draw strength back by sleeping, i think we shud like draw strength from God when we feel so spiritually tired...
sigh... maybe im talking to myself... okay.. back to math..
Life is so RANDOM.
9:13 PM
9:13 PM
"honor thy parents"
sian sia... this is so much for me... they suan me like directly... and blah. and the most hurting thing [yes i'm damn hurt] is that they actually say i dun care about the family.. and i'm as if i'm not part of the family. what crap is this. just because i didnt want to go to the movies and had to skip a family gathering cuz got hsewarming. please lo... gimme a break. =(
yah.. lingquan said that she dun mean it... oh really... she had to say tt like duno how many times... haaa....
i couldnt stay at cin's house yesterday. duno whatever dum reason.. and wadever. and today i couldnt even eat with the leaders just because school starts tmr... what kind of reason is that. they better brush up on their reason making. ha.
yes i'm so negative now. vv pissed...
anyway... lemme describe yesterday and today...
[[yesterday]]
cindy called me at 1.30pm, telling me to go to tampines to bring the cg to her house... hsewarming. wahhh so last min lorr... she was supposed to go... so ANYWAY... i went.. met them and all.. lq was like vvvv late... and blah...then we saw alvin and he decided to go with us.. yahh... and we like last min decided to buy cindy a pressie.. the girls were like "THIS!" "no.. THAT!" in life bookshop.. haha.... the guyS? outside making alot of noise... haha.. so in the end they paid.. and we were running ard to find some dum wrapper... mini toons, 2 bucks excluding the wrapper... like daylight robbery lor... lol... so we ran to toys r us... and FINALLY to popular... haha.. the leaders [lq and alvin] were like... asking us to hurry... and what.. when we chose the wrapper.. they said.. "aiyoo!! this oine so ugly!" -.-"" who were asking us to hurry ah??
and haha.. alvin kindly sponsered the wrapper and the tape... we like ran to the back of the bus... and started wrapping! so noisy lor... me and ser kept shouting.."TEAR THE TAPE!" haha.. so funny lorr... then right... i had to divide the paper into two... no sisscors... tt leon have laa... but after we finish then he take out... -.-"""!!
haha.. reached cindy's house.. had alot of fun sia... and i tell you.. being their tour guide is soooooo tough lor! they walk SO SLOW when we're alr like.. late... wahhh... lol...
then right... cindy wanted to play soccer in her skirt.. haha.. lq kept saying "cindy... you're wearing a skirt laaa" hahaha.....
yeah... the guys went down for soccer... and blah.. then we went down oso... lq talked to us about today... [[actually wanted to go LEW but this chged my mind]] he said today cg got extended pnw.. yah...and we just prayed there lor... vvv nice sia... =)
yeah.. wanted to stay at cindy's hse to like do qt together but my parents said no without giving a nice reason.. [they realllly have to brush up on reason making]
so at the end i was v glum lor... but we played heart attack.. hahaha... i always win!! lol...
lq walked me home and i wanted to do qt.. when my family sleep.. but they sleep like vvv late.. so in the end i fell asleep... v tired.. 2.30am.. and i woke up at6am to pack my dumbo table... wahh...
[[today]]
went with cindy to the 9am service.. the pnw was nice... be magnified was so nice... yah...
cg... -.-" haha.. lq was leading pnw right.. and he was like saying that our body is a instrument of praise.... and demo-ed like.. alot of ways to praise God... it was crazy laa... haha... but so funny...
pnw was nice... i really tried to imagine i was alone... dun care about the ppl ard me... closing my eyes really helps.. yup... same for speedlight oso...
went to speedlight earlier to book seats.. i tell you.. really praise God.. the ppl who went today for speedlight was like.... 19 people!!! wowwheees... we miscounted and in the end louisa, patrina and lq had to sit separeted from us... haha... pnw vv nice!
haha.. dozed abit like towards the end of the service.. really couldnt take it liao.. was like super tired...oops... haha...
after that, lunch with carol, cindy, patrina, lq, denise and did i miss out anyone? was a lame lunch laa.... haha... i love my div sia...
went to the office...MATH! and was laming ard somemore la... haha...
wanted to eat with the leaders as i said just now... dad said no... duno some dumbo reason... sian sia...
wishlist: to spend one entire day [read: 24hrs] dwelling in God's presence. as in just be still... praise and worship.. yah...
sigh... going to finish math
and i'm planning to just tell my teacher i cannot do my history assignment... i really duno what to do........ =((
Life is so RANDOM.
7:46 PM
7:46 PM
yayyy finally this thing works but i need to get used to it.
anyway, let me blog about today and yesterday!!
[[yesterday]]
met tiffy at the mrt [[paya lebar]].. went to her house! so big sia. we wore the same thing tho we never like go and coordinate. haha... black shirt and pink shorts!! ^^
then we met jh for dinner. hahaha.. we talked about alot of things but i was sorta more of the listener. heex.
then we took the bus to hwjc. [[28 stops!]] tot the concert started at 7 so we like ran in but in the end it started at 7.30. hahaha... i think the best peice was the Polar Express. wheee... so cool and cute lor.. lol. saw ade!! lalala.
after the concert... we took the bus back. then we were like hungry. so wanted to look for 7-11. budden we saw this patrol stn [mobil] and so we got down. super ulu sia.. haha... then me and tiffy went to the toilet.. according to jh we sound like..... er. girls screaming and laughing inside. lol.
we asked the counter lady if they got provide hot water for the noodles... [[the auntie's name was mdm lee]] she say have.. so we bought noodles... then right... when she wanted to help us make the noodles.. the dumbo supervisor came and said "mdm lee, we dont provide hot water service here. it's against our law!" like -.-"" !! lor! but then the kind guy.. he asked us to go out and open the instant noodles... then bought us to this somewhere 'secret' place to make the noodles warm... so sweet sia... he could have not bothered us lorr... he say inside got camera. haha... then it's like so paiseh.. the staff got scolded cuz of us.. and THEN we encountered another problem... we had to get past the supervisor's sight cuz we needed to go back to the bus stop.. tiffy got this dum idea of holding our noodles on our left. but it was pretty obvious la lol... yah.. we peeped in and i think i saw the supervisor scolding the staff. poor people. haa.
what will be your reaction if you see three ppl eating noodles at the busstop?? hahahaa.... pathetic laa...
yah lor.. took the bus home and all.
[[today]]
got so pissed cuz
1. i had to quarell with my sister cuz i wanted to do qt. ironic.
2. the keyboard spoiled.
3. my mom was super pressurising me to do smth. i accidentally erased smth la... then she got super angry... like i not stress lor... sian sia.
haha.. accidentally slammed a book on the floor.. hope she never hear.. yah...
then got so pissed... went to vivien's hse... haha... thank God for this fren.. =) met tiffy earlier... blah... then went to pasir ris to meet her cg... felt abit funny.. like extra like tt.. but it's over.. haha...
yah lor.. went to planet shaker's concert... abit dry la.. and the offering 'sermon' was kinda crappy... haha... we didnt know where the money will go lor... and it's like the person was 'pushing' us to give like tt..
but the salvation prayer was nice.. we kept singing "rain down on me".. yupp.. althea and tiffy beside me just knelt down.. then i felt this tug in my heart to kneel and put my arm ard tiffy's shoulder.. haha.. i guess she kinda needed it... =)) hugs tiffy!
the concert finish liao..we [eunice, me, tiffy and althea and another guy] went to macs to eat supper.. haha... yay.
blah.. vvvvv tired... gg to pia my hmwk.. try to recall the formulas and such... meet cindy and my cg... cuz cindy got hsewarming......... ... ...
two things realised today
1. qt rawkx!! =)) i'm loving it more and more as the days go by...
2. perfectionism is a killer.. dun strive to be perfect cuz nth is perfect. it can be a stumbling block.. just do ur best and give God the rest...
and i was doing qt the day b4 and i read this... it was one of the footnotes in my bible..
6:11 -- the armor of God
ephesians concludes with a concise analogy, perhaps inspired by a glimpse of a roman soldier, outfitted in armor, patrolling thr grounds of paul's prison. paul viewed the christian life as a kind of warfare, and he wanted his readers to prepare for the combat with a dangerous opponent. bible scholars often note two details:
1. only the sword of the spirit is an offensive weapon and all the rest were used for defense.
2. no armor protects the back and rear; paul made no provision for running away from a spiritual battle.
plus another point:
to remember the armor of God easily... think of a cross... go and figure it... really works. just look abit.. see where the places of the pieces of armor are and you'll get it. =)
yup... gg to sleep... night world...Life is so RANDOM.
11:24 PM
11:24 PM
argh. i KNOW i shouldnt be going nuts but i AM going nuts!!!!!!
i really am stuck at my history assignment.
and i know im going to struggle through math. i know it.
cries!
today is the day haha..my poor comp will be reformatted. so, miss me for a few days. lol.
0 day to mainey's concert
1 day to planet shakers concert
2 days to cindy's house warming
3 days to sunday!!
oh. i just rememebered. i havent call alot of ppl yet... ahhhhhh help me!!
Mercy Me- spoken for
Take this world from me
I don't need it anymore
I am finally free My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...
[Chorus]
Covered by your love divine
Child of the risen Lord
to hear you say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for
Now I have a peace I've never known before
I find myself complete
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...
By the power of the cross
You've taken what was lost
And made it fully yours
and I have been redeemed
By you that spoke to me
Now I am spoken for
Take this world from me
i don't need it anymore...
Life is so RANDOM.
1:45 PM
1:45 PM
sighs. i'm frustrated. some stuupid hist assignment.
WHERE DO I FIND PICS OF OLD OLD SINGAPORE?!!?!?!?!
=x!!
and im gg to create a blog for my pics. hehe.
the song has nth to do with who sung it.. it was the original song and actually i find it meaningful.
my work is piling up. why did i volunteer to do the whole dumbo hitler lit proj. [btw, when is history linked to lit?!!] better get cracking.
Life is so RANDOM.
9:17 PM
9:17 PM
argh my dad gna reformat the comp.. which means, i've to dl evt again after tt. sian... i better note it down first.
1. msn
2. hello
3. window's journal viewer [msn handwriting]
yeah.. haha.. and it also means tt we have to reconnect evt, like the internet. -.-
ANYWAY, today is great. cept for some dum stuff like the teacher scolding us and this angmoh lady who scolded me in the washroom. -_- i was so pissed off by her but well maybe it's my fault too.
morning - dnt makeup lesson... hahaha! sawing sawing sawing. it's tough.. hand vv tired... after that the girls ran to the washrm and chged into street clothes.. then we carefully [and runfully] made our way outta school.. lol...
then we met the other girls at the mrt stn.. and off we went to orchard.
when we reached orchard we splitted into two groups.. one went to taka to eat and the other wanted pizza. [which was my grp] we searched the whole wisma and no pizza hut. -.-"" and so ended up eating macs [again!!] haha.. i love macs.. by the time the other grp finished, we just started eating. hahaha...
yupz.. they came over and we finished eating. [managed to get a few candid shots =p] we then tried to find far east PLAZA and we walked all the way to far east MALL. and so the direction dumbo girls walked for an hour, from taka to far east plaza. [i never rmbed it was so far from taka!] and we took neos! the first round was combined, all eight ppl in a booth. hahaa.. it was so crazy.. running in and out of the booth. but the pics were nice. =) next we spilt again into two grps and took more neos.. wow im so satisfied with themm... wheees...
haha.. then went to buy drinks.. and some ppl left... walked to wheelock place [borders] and found some books on hitler.. looked at some pics.. wow he was really cruel.
talking about hitler... we talked abt him in cg. [haha, yes lessons can go all the way to hitler] we were like discussing.. if jesus died for all... did he die for hitler? after all.. if he did then it's like "wasted". budden we came to a conclusion tt jesus really died for everyone. yeapz!
now so tired. tmr is mainey's concert and friday is the planet shakers concert! lalala...
will post pics sooon.. =)
Life is so RANDOM.
6:13 PM
6:13 PM
haii... rmbed got a time someone said i never take his words seriously.
in fact i do. anyway now i cant turn back anymore.
must learn to let go of this type of things. the bad things ppl tell me. =x
yeah. decided smth today. must do 8to820 consistantly. =)
and, must get the clocks out of the room.. clocks are vvvv distracting to me.
grr... crap sia... have to do the dumbo dishes just because i didnt wash up to sactisfation yesterday. =xxxxx!! didnt i go through this before............ .... .... .... ....
off to do qt.
[[just drop evt.. stop singing.. stop rushing about.. stop doing anything. find a place to wait on God.. wait and wait till you dun want to wait anymore.. but wait somemore.
it can do wonders. ]]
Life is so RANDOM.
4:40 PM
4:40 PM
haha... talking to wayne. the conversation crazy la... lol..
went offline yesterday at 1am. hahaha..
anyway.. some1 referred this verse to me. it's funny.. ecc 1:2...this is the person's fav verse. -.-""
meaningless! meaningless!
the teacher says.
utterly meaningless!
everything is meaningless.
when i read it... hahaha... i laughed. funny sia.
and i dug deeper into it.. actually the writer [solomon??] was trying to tell us that the things on this earth is meaningless.. so dun dwell too much on them. haha... not exactly a negative verse.
this verse appeared to me twice this week...in cg and chapel.. comforted me lots.. yup.
if we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself
~2 tim 2:13
btw i cut my hair. i want my old hair backk!! =x
AND i just heard this morning [12.15am] tt almost my whole cg jumped during service.. whoootx... haha.. too bad i wasnt with them. duno if this observation is correct... but i think the guys are more on. haha.. anyway my cg rocks.. wheee..
really, God has a great big plan. he planned for lq not to have a capo during cg. he planned for me to go phs. he planned for me to go to the older sec3 div, then to the sec1 div. he planned for me to join the ushering ministry when i was p6. he planned for me to come to lighthouse. and you get the idea.
feeling so thankful now for the people around me.. yeah. dun have to fake smiles in church.. there are so many lame people. ahaha... thinking of what tiffy told me yesterday, about showing our emotions anywhere. kinda agree, but tt means showing a false front which is not easy.
need to spend 8to820[aka qt] sighs.. it's just so difficult. i wandered off the road and i want to come back..
need to do smth about praise n worship in cg... it's really dead. v saddening. just cant forget there was once two guys were like.. laughing and playing ard during pnw.. duno their names la. sighs. really pray tt it'll turn better soon. dun want it to seem tt only in speedlight camps we'll have v good pnw..
sian you know. life, as i said, is getting more and more routine.. smth exciting please happen.
wayne just went offline.. haha.. his lecture ended. so now ive no one to talk with. listening to worthy is the lamb.. wow this post is getting long but i dun want to stop writing..
chats with tiffy are always so good. we'll discuss abt christian stuff.. yeah. like how life is never like a walk in the park, or a stroll in the beach. but she came up with this really nice thot. life can be a walk in the park and a stroll in the beach. cuz, even in the park, there are humps... stones and all.. you have to get past ringing bicycle bells.. blah. in the beach you have barnicles.. rocks.. stones.. and the sea. people may drown you know. but it is nice to stroll in these places.. like it is vvv nice to live with God..
then we talked about songs. how songs can be so short [like majesty and let it rain] as a few sentences.. but so powerful.. when i listen to more than life... the lyrics never fail to touch me..
wah.. wad if God never invent music. haha...
looked vvv sian yesterday in church.. im just no good at disguising my emotions la. sorry. people are supposed to be encouraged by ushers' smiles.. and yet i was there frowning away.. so sorry. haii. have to improve.
i just keep evt bottled up and in the end, i feel so terrible. i need to let it out.. when, God.. when will be the day when i'll finally cry evt out? i cant now and i duno why..
seems like almost everyone is trying to keep a false front.. sian...
and this conviction tells me tt i shud shut up abit. haii... keep too quiet wait ppl say i anti social.. dun keep quiet ppl say i too talkative. then wad?!
"I seriously think i have a major problem communicating.. every wrong thing i will say.. then i try to just tiam tiam, but tiam tiam also cannot, cos like you not supportive or very dao.. hai.. open mouth also cannot, close mouth also cannot..sian..."
seems tt im having the same prob too.. haii.
sighs... long long post.. i know. going off... needa do hmwk.. oh.. this kind of inspiration is vv rare sia.
"you will overcome and the trails you go through will fall one by one.. as My grace pours over you..
you will seek Me and find Me if you seek me with all of your heart.. not just a part.. when the road that you travel seems like it never will end.. i'll be your friend
in the times when you feel like this world is so far from your home, you're not alone
cuz i'll never depart.. seek Me with all of your heart"
cfni - seek Me and find Me
Life is so RANDOM.
1:46 PM
1:46 PM
[[footprints in the sand]]
One night a man had a dream. He dreamt he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonged to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. 'Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the way. but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed You most You would leave me.'
And the Lord replied,' My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you or forsake you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only see one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.'
You have a choice. In those hard times, there will only have one set of footprints. You either choose to walk alone, or allow the Lord to carry you.
[[faithful father]]
father i cant explain this kind of love
this kind of grace
i know i still break Your heart
And yet You run to welcome me
this is my song of praise to You
For who You are and all that You do
from the moment my life began
You have been faithful
Father i love the way You hold me close
And say my name
i know when my life is through
my heart finds its home in You
Life is so RANDOM.
6:32 PM
6:32 PM
haha... today we played this game in cg... super lame sia.. [[of cuz, cindy came up with it =p]] anyway its called the pyramid game, with has totally no link to the game. had to make ur team guess the word but u cant mention the word... or ann the phrase.. got this one... really diaox..."cindy's bedroom" -.-"
yeah. was late for ushering [[sorrry!!!]] ushering was a little chaotic today.. so many ppl.. 500++... yeahh... the skit was nice...
after service went to the ad hoc thingy... that jerrold.. duno go where.. then went to macs to join wayne, jacq, jul, tiff, ale and mandy for lunch.
then went to office.. haha.. weixiong ask me why i look so stone... din know wad to say... cuz actually i was feeling kinda depressed. anyway i said i v tired lorr..
and lemme tell you a story
this gurl, she went for cg on a sunday as usual. a particular cg in the sec1 div. she grabbed one of the praise and worship songsheets and looked trough it. there were two songs, one way and tts why we praise him. cg started soon after.. with the worship ldr playing one way. it came to a point when it was very noisy, because there were some noisy lorries downstairs and the next cg was kinda noisy.. but the worship leader asked the people to just concentrate on wad he was saying. he strummed lightly on the guitar and told the people about the parable of the prodigal son. after that, he decided to change the second song to faithful father. the girl was very grateful.. because she needed that song.. it really touched her heart. she come to realise that God is forever faithful.. even when we're faithless.. he is always waiting there for people to turn back to him..
[[faithful father you've been faithful since the day i was born.. and i praise you for what you do and who you are.. you are my God and i love you]]
Life is so RANDOM.
5:49 PM
5:49 PM
the only reason why im here at 7.35am is because i woke up and cindy say she cannot make it for 9am serv. so there. haha.
yesterday night was pretty adventurous.lemme try to describe.
met rach at douby ghaut, 4.15pm.. then took the train to kallang. reached there and looked for a bus tt will transport us to the staduim. [[btw, we're going there for this benny hinn crusade]] so, finally we found a shuttle chartered bus. and off we were to the stadium.
reached there about...5pm.. saw lq, jan, lin and yanda queuing up. kinda caught off guard lol.. yeahh... couldnt cut the queue. sian lor! we went to the back back back.. then hor, it was so warm.. ppl trying to cut the queue... blah. and it started raining. didnt mean to eavesdrop, but i heard this guy saying into the phone.."me ah? oh im queuing in the rain" hahaha... true la!
at about.. 6.30 i think.. they started shifting the ppl.. moving them. wah so scared couldnt get in lor.. then finally got in at 7.30pm.. got a balcony seat. -.-" rang lin up and she say the usher made her give up their reserved seats. -.-"""!!
anyway.. pnw..this song super nice sia.. Your love is beautiful. whees.
yupp! it was a nice service... so cool lor the healings.. and i think God straightened my back.praise God.=) got ppl slain.. the pastor just sort of 'push' the ppl and they fell.. yahh...
actually was kinda v tired.. wasnt really concentrating well. but God is there.
about 11.30pm my phone rang... vibration la. i tot it was my mom so i tried to ignore. but whoever calling didnt give up.. so i took out my phone.. it was lingquan... BIG MISTAKE HERE. i answered the phone la.. and everyone looking at me. siannx... sorrrry! haha... so, he asked me if im planning to go home. i was like "duh!" then he said "do u know wads the time now?" omgoodness. then he say he'll wait for me at the bus stop and ask me to fly over. yeah. so i flew. hahaha... saw jiajun, alvin tay and janissa.. we walked to the mrt cuz we tot no bus liao i think.. they were like scolding me lor.. haha.. yes leaders i will check the dumbo last train when i go out. hurrs. walk walk walk...jump jump jump.. walk one hour..was really trying to walk straight.. super tired sia.. FINALLY reach the mrt... then NO TRAIN except to pasir ris.. so jan, alvin and jiajun took a cab.. cuz they live in tamp. while poor lq and me... we walked half an hour more. to find a dbs atm machine. lame sia.. the first one was out of order.. then look somemore.. finally found one. hee. went to 7-11 buy something to drink. [[him, not me.. and i havent eat for.. i duno how many hours]] okay. found a cab and zoomed home.. mom smsed me.. ask me where i was. told her and blah blah blah.. ahhaa... throughout the whole journey we were arguing... cuz v paiseh if he pay the fare.. yeahh.. and he insisted dun want. =x.
reach home 1.00am++ wah the latest alone.. ahaha... dad wanted to come downstairs to see me up.. then when i reach home.. sianx.. mom started saying...
"you kong bu la..." then i was like "what..?!"
"dad was actually sleeping you know"
grr. then i felt so paiseh. but again, it would be better if my dad din come down. not tt im not appreciative k.
then they were like.. "the service so good meh?" "ask u convince me go you dun want" "dun even know wads the title of the msg.. where this person came from.. wad time end" haiis. tts my parents. always finding chance to suan me... very sick of it.
fell asleep on the sofa after arguing with lq somemore. haa.. didnt had a really nice sleep.. woke up at 7am.. then cindy sms me say she cant go 9am service. -.-" okay la cindy.. its not your fault..
so im just killing my time... alr chged somemore... lalala... i dun want to sleep back.
congratulations to you, you are such a patient person to read until here. haha..
SOS sunday today! wheeeehooos.
Life is so RANDOM.
8:01 AM
8:01 AM
haha.. today woke up at 1pm++
went back to prisch.. slacked and terroized mt ex teachers like 4h+.
sian sia..
bz hol..
keep thinking what pris told me one day when i was feeling not too good... she told me "dun run on an empty tank"...
yeah im so tired... running without my petrol.. ahh... im weak but he is strong.. i need my strengthh..
then i told lingquan this..
"no lah.. you dun fail.. even if you do, pick up whats left and move on"
i actually said tt and i cant believe it... i myself cant do it.. haiis...
Lord i know you must have a reason for herr to l e a v e... we dun want but... thy will be done.. praying that it'll all be your will.. not her will.. not her parent's will.. not our will... amen..
Life is so RANDOM.
8:33 PM
8:33 PM
lalala... no sheryl didnt vanish into thin air... internet was down. okay.. lemme update!!
[[tuesday]]
went for some dum socliosis follow up. it's NOT NICE AND IM NOT GOING TO PUT BRACES. tt's FINAL. grrr.
[[wednesday]]
decorated classrm until 6.20pm... yahh... quite late eh.. and was freakingly totally pissed by this classmate. dun wnt to eleborate.
[[TODAY]]
40th anniversaryyy! touched up on decos.. then went to j8 with fatin, lilin and cheryl... shopped... and met mainey.. tt gurl.. forget to bring my
tix! yah.. so see her eat her lunchie.. ate her meatballs lol.. and was trying to tie a shoeslace onto my bag... she took it and tie my hair. -.-"""!! okay. shall do tt on sunday. =p
yeah. went back to school... sound checks and blah blah blah... then the ACTUAL PERFORMANCE... the last song..amigoes pare siempre... LOL..the whole choir was trying not to laugh..cuz ms yee made ian swing his arms like as if someone is crazy... hahahahhahaa....i was like shaking... dun laugh dun laugh.. then get off stage everyone laugh like mad ppl.. haha
now my feet are crying.. poor toes were squashed... cuz of my heels.. =x... hahaa...
tmr is holidayyy! yays//
thanks.. joy,wayne, tiffy and shuhuaa.... =) he will never leave nor forsake.. smiles
[[i know your word is true...i live i breathe i long to worship you... ]]
Life is so RANDOM.
8:31 PM
8:31 PM
i just dun see the point anymore cuz you see.. life has suddenly been so routine.
can we have some change?!
i think, im having monday blues... every monday oso like tt. sian lor.
yah yah... im depressed... [cindy.. yes i agree now] argh.
how to shake off this feeling. sundays dun feel like sundays anymore... urgh... nehmind.. still love sundays.
what else do we do but to eat.sleep.play.crap.study?
and yah... now i see the point in my cg guys' sharing too... it's actuallly really what happened. our lives are so boring..
hellllllloo... we need a revival somewhere.
the qn remains: where?
[[still croaking -- even worse. yours truly frog princess ^^]]
Life is so RANDOM.
6:02 PM
6:02 PM
im starting to feel the dryness.
siannz...
just now lead pnw in cg.. tried smth. didnt really work out and i was like shaking.. then this gurl.. duno her name.. directly opp me... and was staring at me... -.-
then what else. went to 9am with cindy..
got saboed to be watchlighter... [-.-]
during cg we had sharing.. after my turn.. after lingquan's turn... started to feel really..down.... i duno how to describe la.. wanted some time alone.. yeah.. so excused myself.. went to the stairs.. 1min later ser came.. then we talked la. talked... then cindy came to tell us cg is almost over... and realised tt i got abit fever.. so prayed for me.. actually she ask why i went out but i duno what to tell her.. so i say... erh.. not feeling well..
speedlight... wanted to kneel but oh well... it's like really as if a thousand eyes staring at me... very not nice.. yeahh... the service was like for praying.. for the SOS outreach next week..
then got adhoc watchlight briefing... attended last year so i could escape.. heh heh.. anyway oso got GM... flew to the shammah room... yeah... briefing on the ushering next week. then we went as a ministry upstairs to pray. with the other leaders... laid hands on the chairs and all.. yahh...
feeling so sian... i want to get rid of this feeling.. it's like just a fake outer shell... the cheerfulness and all.
maybe what lingquan said is right eh.. i'm depressed.. i duno la.. argh..
so numb..
im like overtiring myself.. just work and work.. i dun care alr.. everytime i sit down.. be still and what.. like in cg today.. sit down listen to the sharing.. and all the feelings of weariness.. of tiredness.. of stress and whatnot.. just hit me.. it always happens and i cant take it..
and im trying to 'comfort' others when i cant even manage myself. crap sia.
Life is so RANDOM.
6:20 PM
6:20 PM
was feeling so down just now.. mood swings again. argh i hate them... sian..
suddenly feel like going to MS... after i listened to the song as we worship you..
duno la.. no one go with me.. cindy is booked up today... tiff got band... blah blah...
hmm.
[[as i come b4 your throne.. i feel your arms surround me now.. amazed by the wonders of the power of your name..i'll give my life to you.. the God of my salvation... and i know i'll never be the same again. jesus reigns..]]
update:
MY VOICE SOUNDS HORRRRRIBLE NOW! oh my goodness... tmr how to lead...
i sound like a frog princess now. bleah.. oh CUZ princess k.. HAHA...
how how how... i try my best ah... lingquan and cindyy please help me.. thanks alot. =x
better take more strepsils. and trust God. cuz his plans are always higher... =)
Life is so RANDOM.
3:02 PM
3:02 PM
sian... every saturday and sunday morning... i'll sure hear shouting... and it's my mom's shouting.. esp saturday morns.. it sucks lorr... saturday is the only day i can sleep in and there they are shouting away... can they please be a bit more consideratE?
sunday morn right... mom will give me tt not really happy face... so i always hurry wash up and get out of the house.. really sian to be like tt..
mom just shouted at gram.. hope gram will take it abit lightly... cuz she has this tendency to think about things for a long time... think too much.. yeahh...
yesterday 40th ann rehearsal... got my gown like 10min b4 the performance... and my zip stucked... and wadever... the 6 of us were like running to the washroom... run to the perofrming arts room... run to the hall... finally got there just in time.. and after tt, the main conductress.. whom i never seen b4.. scolded us like mad... said tt it was the most horrible performance she never heard of.. like argh. two choir teachers whom just seen the sec1s just scolded and scolded. pract ended at 7.30++ i was damn hungry... then chg wadever.. the stairs so dark! haha... dad came to fetch me cuz no food at home.. reached home at 10+... then sis got on my nerves again...
see what i mean about being considerate.
there i go again... being judgemental.. manx i must stop this.
going to study today.. this time... no one coming. good. i need to study history and science... tests coming.
oh.. my march hols schedule..
sunday -- sos outreach!
monday -- study day.... do assignments and wadever
tuesday -- study day yes... but not so much study. heh..
wednesday -- dnt makeup lesson... and one humility orchard road shoppin!
thursday -- maineyyys concert
friday -- planetshakers!
saturday -- i duno..
sunday -- LEW! wheees..
yeah... tried to keep mon and tues free from anything.. needa rest sia..
Life is so RANDOM.
12:18 PM
12:18 PM
hehh... shoutout time!
tiffy;
heyyyys my complaining budddddy! hahahaha.... as you realise the journey ahead is not easy... but with God all things are possible yah? =)) presss on... and shout hallelujah! there's only ONE special tiffy wong... smiles!
cindy;
know tt you girl wont read this but i dun care kays... you are my super cgl... hehe... rock on... and may God bless your cg ministry...touch the hearts of ppl! thankks so muchh.. =D
maineyyy;
heyys.... jiayou kay. yes and amen you're going to get tt erh... 4 points(?) for your Ns... glorify God in it and get into rjc... study hard smart and must rmb dun let it overtake God... smileyys! and ohhh.... i'll be there for your concert yah!
alena;
nana! hehh... some more crazy nights at my house eh? ;) anyways.... yupp... thank thanks.. your encouragement.... just being there..and being crazy with me.... we enjoyed the planning of the ushers outing yah? =) smileeeeys... dun get sad... yes.. can be tired... but renew your strength.. and you can soar like eagle... and jiayou!
dion;
helllllo guy... i still rmb the day when i first led how you encouraged me.. thanks so much kays... tho you move liao.... but we're still one united body of christ... yupp... hahaha.... i oso dun think you'll read this... but oh well.. keep your passion and fire for God going strong... God bless!
allllllllllyy;
sotttonng... hahahaa... yayaya.. thank thanks thanks... for being there... just to tell me tt God will be always there.. and same for you yah.... continue seeking him for right directions... yup!
wayne;
surprised right... hahaha... rmb 1800-wayne? tho i've like.. dun call tt number liao... but yes you are still so lame... maybe lamer... like me.. hahahaha... yeahh.. continue serving God with all thy heart... =)
lingquan;
yes i know you oso wont read this... but... like cindy i just wna say a big thank you..=) the path ahead full of broken glass eh... but God is faithful and will not tempt you to more than what you can bear... smiless... dun look so anti social.. hahahah... and yahh... God bless~
shuhua;
auntie hua hua... =p hahaha.. yupp.. here's your bubbly sheryl back to normal.. no.. even crazier... come back soon kayys... miss you like doughnuts... miss your swt smile... jiayou for your Os! =))
wow i'm so on fire now....
[[shout halllllelujah! giving praise to you my God who reignns... =D ]]
Life is so RANDOM.
10:25 PM
10:25 PM
| wahhhh..... i found out today tt my classmate attends lighthouse woodlands... LOL.... and someone from CF too... wahh... all the ppl in lighthouse from my sch go LEW... leave me in LET.. nvm.. both oso same. anyway.... i slipped through the school gates at the 11th hour.. its like i woke up at 7.04am!! then was like shaking my dad to wake up.... rushing about and blahh.. almost din make it.. then got headache and sore throat..couldnt concentrate in the chi test... i think i'm gna fail lo... the sore throat esp was killing me... and it's still killing me. wadtheheck. yupp.. after sch went to CF and bible study... bible study about temptation... 1cor 10:13. yup. arhhh... the sore throat... so bu4 zhun3... tmr got choir 40th ann preview... then gotta lead on sunday... cant it choose a better time..... =x |
Life is so RANDOM.
8:42 PM
8:42 PM
Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!What Gender Is Your Brain?
Life is so RANDOM.
6:18 PM
6:18 PM
mannnzz... this is so doty.. some of the songs i'm looking for are right here b4 my eyes... diaoz!
hahaha... and i'm looking all over the place..
anywayy.... i'm going for my curved spine checkup next week.. hope i dun have choir pract.. cuz i've a feeling they'll double up next week... 40TH ANN! tmr taking gown, friday letting parents and the guest of honor preview... and next thursday is the day... eeeekkks... aiyohh.. why arh.. i've gone upstage like countless times i still nervous.. bleah
and i tell you. i hate curved spine checkups. it's horrible.. haiis... maybe have to put brace... nonono.. reject reject reject in jesus namee... i DUN WANT TO PUT THE BRACE! it'll be so uncomfortable.. so hot and wadever. crap... dun wantt..
okay. i will not wear it. heh.
[[the day when people will fall down to their knees and cry in worship is so near.. ard the corner.. Lord help us to be ready for it. amenn... ]]
Life is so RANDOM.
10:16 PM
10:16 PM
i was like woken up by the stupid thunder at 5am... wah seldom this happens lo... it was like as if a million tonnes of metal crash down... frighten me sia.
yah... heavy rain! gram went to close the windows and off the fan. -.-" why off the fan la?! hahaa.. so WARM lorr... somemore i under blanket.. hahah...
then right... woke up at 615am... still raining. duno whether got swimming lesson.. then call jingyi... hahaha... it was like we were debating if we should go straight to sch... wear uniform... or go to the stadium in pe attire... i said tt i wear sch U go sch la.. then she say "wait they scold you 'why you no common sense how?!'" haha... then i replied... "common sense?! HAH.... i will tell them you then no common sense arhs! what if we run on the track then fall down? what if the thunder scare ppl? what if the lightning strike ppl?!" hahaha... i was laming la.. fancy me laming in the morning..
then my father tell me to call the school. i tell you arh.. if i find out who's this office worker i'll ask mrs tan to sack him.
-dials school number-
Me: hello... good morning.. i call to ask about the sec 1 swimming lesson...
office worker: sec1 swimming? you are asking ME? how would i know?
me: it's raining so i want to know if it's still on..
OW: who am i to know? no one will tell me! okay... you dun assume if raining then no lesson. kays?!
me: okay. THANK you..
please lo. attitude sia.. yes i am a student.. but he must respect me oso what.. what the.
HAHA.. i was like late lo.. cuz all the calling and what... set off late.. anyway i blended in. heh heh..
the swimming was like.. my fren struggling right in front of me... deep pool mah and she scared... i wanted to help her.. but too far away.. and the instructer like dive in alr.. haha..
yeah.
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so i'm sorry if i;m being judgemental.. need to get this out.. i have enough.. and enough means enough.
[[i cant care.. dun want to care.. and dont care anymore..]]
Life is so RANDOM.
6:13 PM
6:13 PM
hais. i wonder... where is our class unity... has it vanished? we're getting clique-ish... and ppl are disliking... hating one another.. one humility... rock on yah... ^^ when we get to sec3 and you'll realise tt you miss this class.. trust me.. ______ cant wait till the march hols.. need some time for my sch work.. myself and most impt, God... even more cant wait for june hols.. speedlight camp! whooootx..
quote: Don't be sad... Take pride in wat u do n always love n thank God! [[the journey is never easy but with God all things are possible..]]
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Life is so RANDOM.
10:46 PM
10:46 PM
was talking to some1 yest and i kinda regret. was quite encouraged by my principal today.. after the 40th ann rehearsal.. she said "you may be tired physically... but keep your spirit strong and soaring" am thankful for her... she always gives pep talks.. yeah. choir pract was pretty slack.. muahahas... i escaped from wearing the gown. yes you read right. GOWN. i tell you.. if anyone see me in tt gown you'll laugh your heads off. bleah. yah... so i escaped cuz the auntie made a error... -.-" the sleaves are different. yup. sian... now cannot put books under the table liao.. die lor... everyday so heavy. wad the heck.. what else.. oh yah... bumped into xinyi on the bus... heh... she was going from from her malay class.. wow lorr.... take up 3rd lang. i think 9 subs are enough for me. hahaha.. feeling a little better after ally spoke to me yest... seems tt wad happened on sunday and plus my stupid mood swings are pulling me down.. i reject and reject kays... mr s.a.tan you have to get lost... oh yah... thanks alot to tiffy and ally.. =) |
Life is so RANDOM.
7:23 PM
7:23 PM