haha... talking to wayne. the conversation crazy la... lol..
went offline yesterday at 1am. hahaha..
anyway.. some1 referred this verse to me. it's funny.. ecc 1:2...this is the person's fav verse. -.-""
meaningless! meaningless!
the teacher says.
utterly meaningless!
everything is meaningless.
when i read it... hahaha... i laughed. funny sia.
and i dug deeper into it.. actually the writer [solomon??] was trying to tell us that the things on this earth is meaningless.. so dun dwell too much on them. haha... not exactly a negative verse.
this verse appeared to me twice this week...in cg and chapel.. comforted me lots.. yup.
if we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself
~2 tim 2:13
btw i cut my hair. i want my old hair backk!! =x
AND i just heard this morning [12.15am] tt almost my whole cg jumped during service.. whoootx... haha.. too bad i wasnt with them. duno if this observation is correct... but i think the guys are more on. haha.. anyway my cg rocks.. wheee..
really, God has a great big plan. he planned for lq not to have a capo during cg. he planned for me to go phs. he planned for me to go to the older sec3 div, then to the sec1 div. he planned for me to join the ushering ministry when i was p6. he planned for me to come to lighthouse. and you get the idea.
feeling so thankful now for the people around me.. yeah. dun have to fake smiles in church.. there are so many lame people. ahaha... thinking of what tiffy told me yesterday, about showing our emotions anywhere. kinda agree, but tt means showing a false front which is not easy.
need to spend 8to820[aka qt] sighs.. it's just so difficult. i wandered off the road and i want to come back..
need to do smth about praise n worship in cg... it's really dead. v saddening. just cant forget there was once two guys were like.. laughing and playing ard during pnw.. duno their names la. sighs. really pray tt it'll turn better soon. dun want it to seem tt only in speedlight camps we'll have v good pnw..
sian you know. life, as i said, is getting more and more routine.. smth exciting please happen.
wayne just went offline.. haha.. his lecture ended. so now ive no one to talk with. listening to worthy is the lamb.. wow this post is getting long but i dun want to stop writing..
chats with tiffy are always so good. we'll discuss abt christian stuff.. yeah. like how life is never like a walk in the park, or a stroll in the beach. but she came up with this really nice thot. life can be a walk in the park and a stroll in the beach. cuz, even in the park, there are humps... stones and all.. you have to get past ringing bicycle bells.. blah. in the beach you have barnicles.. rocks.. stones.. and the sea. people may drown you know. but it is nice to stroll in these places.. like it is vvv nice to live with God..
then we talked about songs. how songs can be so short [like majesty and let it rain] as a few sentences.. but so powerful.. when i listen to more than life... the lyrics never fail to touch me..
wah.. wad if God never invent music. haha...
looked vvv sian yesterday in church.. im just no good at disguising my emotions la. sorry. people are supposed to be encouraged by ushers' smiles.. and yet i was there frowning away.. so sorry. haii. have to improve.
i just keep evt bottled up and in the end, i feel so terrible. i need to let it out.. when, God.. when will be the day when i'll finally cry evt out? i cant now and i duno why..
seems like almost everyone is trying to keep a false front.. sian...
and this conviction tells me tt i shud shut up abit. haii... keep too quiet wait ppl say i anti social.. dun keep quiet ppl say i too talkative. then wad?!
"I seriously think i have a major problem communicating.. every wrong thing i will say.. then i try to just tiam tiam, but tiam tiam also cannot, cos like you not supportive or very dao.. hai.. open mouth also cannot, close mouth also cannot..sian..."
seems tt im having the same prob too.. haii.
sighs... long long post.. i know. going off... needa do hmwk.. oh.. this kind of inspiration is vv rare sia.
"you will overcome and the trails you go through will fall one by one.. as My grace pours over you..
you will seek Me and find Me if you seek me with all of your heart.. not just a part.. when the road that you travel seems like it never will end.. i'll be your friend
in the times when you feel like this world is so far from your home, you're not alone
cuz i'll never depart.. seek Me with all of your heart"
cfni - seek Me and find Me
Life is so RANDOM.
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